Fall

Hi bloggers.. it's been a long time i'm forgot about my blog, forgot to share something with all of you :) don't worrry.. Now here i am.

Well, it's been a very long month that i had through. I had made a final decision of my life, not just for my life eventually but for everyone life too at the same time. Especially my dad, all i've to do is just for him and make him happy, and after him i have my little brother. Little story about my little brother, he is just a teenager boy 16years old, junior high school the third.. He likes playing tennis, badminton, basket, also football, end story his hobby is in sport. Perhaps he is not good in classroom, but he already got the cup with best of the best category in modeling and he was an actor, and he is good in sport lol. He is kinda a boy who don't talk too much, but i know he was a thinker and he have his own mind. If someone do not know him at the first time meet him people will though "this guy is so cool and lazy and dumb, but he's handsome" lol no..no it's just my high imagination mind about him. Actually, he is a kindly boy, have his own way to treat people he loves and appreciate, don't ask him to talk to the strangers he'll expressly ignore you because he is a silly boy lol. He don't like to show off his loved, may be he had been hurt for doing that, i have no idea. Short storie, he is a boy who alike our dad, not talk too much but think too much and gently. I'm so proud of you little boy. You're one of a few man who do something with them heart, lovely boy. And i luv u too little brother. And i know exactly you love me first *prides myself* lol.

Finally.. ohh, yeah.. i've been read someone tweet's in my timeline and the tweet goes be like this "waiting for someone else making you feel happy is your way to make you fall much deeper. Your happiness is your responsibility" so i was think that.. may be my decision to start a new life with the strengthen that i have is the right choice. I can do something to make everyone around me feel more relieved without any load about my life, or any jealously with me. I have my own life and now may be this is the time that i should face it early.

Wish me luck in my new life.. And one message from me for all of you guys, do not ever feel doubt of something you think that u have to do it for your life or something you have to start to do, even in the first u don't deserve what you thought that will be better. But i've learn about "Fall not to face the ground and lament the pain for the rest of your life, but make that Fall to Raise your life better than before".

Thank you for visiting my blog, don't forget to leave some comment guys, it would be nice for me :)

Have a great bloggers..

Gbu

Feet

Humpty Dumpty. . lol

Sorry for long post. i'm back again here bloggers.

Well, it's been a very looooong week and day.

 I'll tell a whole story with every kindly good thing here.

 Finally i had finished my final exam, the result is already come out in part, so far the result of my exam is good enough but only two subject that feel terrifying to know. Because i know both of them will get bad score, but i am still let myself feel hope about them, i just force my luck.

The final exam is already finished yet, so it's mean the holiday gonna comes close. I can't wait go to Bali with my besties. And the great new news is M is changes her mind then join us go to Bali. Hope that vacation will gonna be fine and nice and unforgettable moment.

Last Sunday exactly in 1st July 2012, i got a called from my dad, he asked me to come join him in my grandma house to eat together, so i went with my little bro. We're there eat lunch and talking about many things. Then in the afternoon i was go to watch movie with my dad, my s.mom, my little brother. We're had a good time together watching Abraham Lincoln movie, little story about the movie i watched. Lincoln is a vampire hunter in the story, he was betrayed with his friends who teach him how to killed the vampire whereas he almost trust him to be his true friend, the fact that his friends who teach him about everything is turned a vampire too. Lincoln finally found his True Love and he was get married with the girl who he met at the store he worked. When Lincoln was in trouble between to fight all of the vampire or let the vampire ruling. But his wife said "put you feet and strengthen your legs, no matter what happened and what will gonna happened after and before, the only question is where's you put your feet?".

Maybe this sentence make me realized about something that escaped the attention of mine, about we are just a human who moved and growth. Sometimes our decision can make everything around us cause a reaction. But if we are pretty sure the decision is right when viewed from all aspects, we have to know Where's we put our Feet in? before we Put our Feet and Strengthen with.

 

The best man

Then again.. after all of the time i through it all..

Dad have got that strength to face me and my little brother with that surprised.

2 days ago is my dad's birthday and i called him to go out eat some dinner to celebrate it, correction to tell about how i feel and what exactly i want. I knew my passion to choose studying in this cruel town is just for him, i think that i can live with him and take care of him. I love him so much, more than any word i can say.

Well, little story about my dad, i know him so well.. He is a very good man, very strong man, and one thing i sure about is he loved us - me and my little bro - He loves us more than people in this world can do. May be he never show up that feeling directly, but his act is absolutely tell the word he never said out loud. I was that little girl when my dad was a handsome guys, who get mad at me if i drunk that ice water or eat some ice cream, because i would be sneezing all night long after, and the only person who take care of me is He. It's sound like an old story. He is the man who bought me a bicycle and teach me how to riding it. And for the first time i was ride it, i can't stopped because i was too panic to think, ended with i fallen with bloody knee. And he was there lift me up and clean up my scars, give them some medicine. Then he teach me how to stop that bike and told me that i should try it tomorrow at least after my scars is healing. 

In every molecule of my body, i swear i will always remember that moment, when my father teach me indirectly ; "If you fall, u have to stand up and try it again and don't ever fall in the same mistake because u have been knew the wrong thing u did" i never thought that was a big thing when i was a little girl, but as time goes by i realized how useful the message behind it. Love u Dad.

And after he through all of his loneliness, he finally found the right person as he think. I just can hope this one it would be the better one. Dad teach me to do not fall at the same mistake again, i so sure he know exactly what he was teach. One thing that Dad should know is, i still your little girl who would take that responsibility to take care of you as you did to me. So i will supported you for all the decision you've made. I realized that you know the best for yourself.

Well, Happy Birthday Dad. Wish u alL the best. And Happy Fathers Day. You're the best man I've ever have, and always be. 

The last day exam

Your guardian Angel Lyric

You guardian Angel - The red jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

This is the beautiful love song i've ever hear. Thanks for giving me this wonderful love song to hear and Thank you so much Dear AIP for your big love. I got ur love more than i deserve it, and you have to know that u have been placed in best part of my life.

~DVM~

Sun shine

Lovely pink, fresh windows :)